╰✿╮☜ Jessica ☞╰✿╮

去看了《春光乍泄》。。。

早上坐在车上，闭着眼睛，听着张国荣的歌，想着电影的情节，想到浑身冰凉。。。

不知道自己什么时候开始变得如此感性。。。

我并不是张国荣的影迷，但每次看他的电影总能感觉到他的寂寞。。。

前段时间一直在想，人一辈子一直一个人过也不错，少了许多责任，牵绊。。。

但现在，想结婚，很想。。。

最近开始喜欢上了尼古拉斯·凯奇，便把他的经典电影一部部翻出来看。。。

【The Weather Man】，挺喜欢这部的，喜欢看他在电影中幻想，挣扎却又无奈……事情往往并不是那么尽如人意，这便是生活。

　　　　l remember once...imagining what my life would be like,what l'd be like.
　　　　l pictured having all these qualities.Strong, positive qualities...that people could pick up on from across a room.
　　　　But as time passed...few ever became any qualities l actually had.
　　　　And all the possibilities l faced,and the sorts of people l could be...all of them got reduced every year to fewer and fewer...
　　　　until finally they got reduced to one...to who l am.
　　　　And that's who l am...the weathrman

我们设想我们的生活，我们渴望得到一些东西。。但是到后来或许什么都没有，甚至连自己当初设想的都忘记了

里面一首歌也挺有意思的，男主角跟他父亲坐在车里，如同个孩子般需要的只是长辈的一个认可

 

Like a rock

 

Stood there boldly
Sweatin in the sun
Felt like a million
Felt like number one
The height of summer
Id never felt that strong
Like a rock

I was eighteen
Didnt have a care
Working for peanuts
Not a dime to spare
But I was lean and
Solid everywhere
Like a rock

My hands were steady
My eyes were clear and bright
My walk had purpose
My steps were quick and light
And I held firmly
To what I felt was right
Like a rock

Like a rock, I was strong as I could be
Like a rock, nothin ever got to me
Like a rock, I was something to see
Like a rock

And I stood arrow straight
Unencumbered by the weight
Of all these hustlers and their schemes
I stood proud, I stood tall
High above it all
I still believed in my dreams

Twenty years now
Whered they go?
Twenty years
I dont know
Sit and I wonder sometimes
Where theyve gone

And sometimes late at night
When Im bathed in the firelight
The moon comes callin a ghostly white
And I recall
Recall

Like a rock. standin arrow straight
Like a rock, chargin from the gate
Like a rock, carryin the weight
Like a rock

Lihe a rock, the sun upon my skin
Like a rock, hard against the wind
Like a rock, I see myself again
Like a rock

 

另外，【8毫米】，【火柴男人】，【科莱利上尉的曼陀铃】也都不错，有兴趣的可以去找来看看

回家路上，遇到了小学同学，简单地聊了几句。她中专毕业工作了几年，邻近的地点，清闲的工作，稳定的工资，似乎我想要的也只是这样，而我。。。多读了几年无用之书，读完了前途还是在迷茫之中。。。从小，父母就不断地灌输不好好学习的种种坏处，曾几何时也曾志高气傲地认为自己的人生会比一部分人过得精彩。。。但现在越来越觉得大学，MD是个屁。。。
可笑的是，晚上去帮小朋友补课，便又不由自主地细数了遍不好好学习的种种坏处，让她要努力学习。说完，才猛然意识到自己的虚伪。或许多年以后，这小孩再想起我说的话，也会说,当时那老师的话，MD是个屁。。。

在找一首钢琴曲时，无意中听到了爱的罗曼史的钢琴版。虽然曲子还是同样的优美，但吉他的和弦用钢琴弹奏起来总让人觉得有些不舒服，似乎爱的罗曼史只有配上古典吉他才是最完美的组合。不知是乐曲为乐器而作，还是乐器为乐曲而奏……